Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Summer Through Brew-Colored Glasses (Sestina 9)


















Collaboration with
Aytch Rae



A sip or two in the afternoon. After lawn’s mowed and weeds pulled. Small reward hot summer
Work. Side street patio, tipping back, eyeing passers-by and soaking in suds and sun. The last
bit of Twilight disappearing. Time enough for one more round to cool off a day spent
smoothing shrubs and forcing nature to look unnatural, meanwhile the dog chases butterflies.
These are the days dreamt of while cold rains pop up and clouds blur the days of Springtime
when furnaces grumble at howling winds and sun-starved bones shiver and creak.

Missing lazing days, when playtime was serious business, never paid in guilt. Lying on creek
beds watch trout break the surface, low flying bugs dinnertime afternoon naptime, ah Summer
Twining fingers, everything changes. Sun-lidded eyes open, awake to love’s Springtime
where everything is fresh and new and holds a seed of hope from beginning burst to last
Cautious clinging panicked enchanted, lost footing in a minefield of dustless butterflies
churning and burning a stomach. Turning a yearning until finally emotionally spent.

Years ago wonder was king, cracking eggs on burning sidewalks was one way days were spent
floating dandelion and roly-poly stuffed pencil boxes, millipede Moses adrift on the creek
washed out jars holes poked in lids filled with fireflies, homemade nets search the next butterfly
Avoiding stepping on cracks, smuggling out snacks, delicious perils of summer
clambering out the door breakfast in hand determined to make each and every day last
forever. Backpedalling bikes, steer the clock away from the bells of fall, and toward springtime

September boards, books, rules, stretches time on chalk racks. Run-on sentence ‘til springtime
and in the meantime, papers to be left unwritten until last minutet, school days misspent
each grade level burdens backpacks with more obligations. Wild abandon crushed out at last
on to college and on to career and on to spouses and on to children and all to soon knees creak
savoring memory remnants like sticky fingered ice cream drips, tasting every drop of summer
warm afternoon moments children reinventing cocooning emerging soaring becoming butterflies

Early morning practice in the pool, backstroke sidestroke American crawl and of course butterfly
Diving board: specimen on a slide. Microscopic between blue sky and water. Jump. Spring time
launch into clear blue sky then feeling cold kiss and silence of surrounding water. Summer
chlorine swirling weave between knees beneath the surface Emerge gasping, starving, spent
towel in hand feet burning from concrete, shuffle slowly to deck chair plastic straps creak
basted in cool blue pool, baked in sun, bellyful of snow cone. Each day better than the last

Sheet spread on grass bed, squirrels eye sandwiches from shade trees, ants scramble for last
crumbs fallen forgotten amongst empty cans silently oblivious above brightly colored  butterfly
traces petalled love notes between distant flowers, pollinated breezes waft from sky to creek
pushing paper boats and cooling giggling children searching tadpoles sure sign of springtime
Specimens on dressers, shell heaps, ant farms, sea monkeys, jars of fireflies, their lights spent
So ends the long hot days, learning more and busier than school could dream of, ah Summer

And at last, after long mean winters, you find through half froze ground signs of springtime
Budding leaves, drier days, bursting butterflies emerging from cocoons hungry and spent
Fast flowing sticks clog the creek just need a patio beer to welcome the coming  summer

Sunday, August 14, 2011

11.20.10

Brittle leaves skitter
through streets
winter is coming
brutal long cold
what will survive
is uncertain
what is certain
there is
the other side
time will pass 
it will be 
crossed
the season
like a river
moves on
unlike a desert
unlike an ocean
no one has
mapped the
other side

Sunday, July 10, 2011

The Summer of Mud

There was a summer of working concrete. Eastern Idaho. Ashton, St. Anthony,  Ririe, Idaho Falls. Nearly every day of those three months ended watching topsoil and water mix, swirl down the drain. Town to town, neighborhood to neighborhood, didn't matter where, work was the same. The heat hanging in the air was the same. Shovelfuls of dirt never getting lighter. Stink of form oil and sweat, fresh washed clothes never quite clean. It was only one summer. Long. Brutal. But more than any other job, I felt I had earned my keep each week.

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Daughters (Sestina 8)

Collaboration with


Dimpled, sun dappled, sidewalk toe tapping daughters multiply
laugh lines. Hopping tromp-stomping in tutus and boots through the last
of snow melt puddles. Impossible to capture moments of runaway
rapture, grasping as childhood’s soap-bubbles pass... Panicked parents mind
the time; unwind memory (like strings around fingers)-- word of mouth
ribbons of hard-earned wisdom. Bind it as they might, the clock’s not stopping

Tiny nose flat against the window, shouting at an ice cream man who isn’t stopping.
I watch her face darken momentarily. She forgets, and giggles begin to multiply,
she’s remembered that I promised cookie dough for lunch and stuffs her mouth.
Saturdays we don’t follow rules.  Dance about the house, make each moment last.
Too quickly the days of youth fade behind and little girls begin to lose their mind
days of pink, princesses, and unicorns lost forever.  It all just runs away.

Wee hour windblown shadows twist curtains. Daughters shriek in runaway
terror, arms rescue pleading from bunk bed driftwood. Sailing in, stopping
tentacles and tearing teeth with the parental power of unbelief, “It’s all in your mind.”
Noggin nestled between shoulder and cheek, a mist of breath and tears. Multiply
the hours battling sleep. This omnipotence won’t last.
Gathering snuggles while we may, mere mortals wishing to stop Chronos’ mouth.

Curled on couch fever burning her body bringing aches tears parched mouth
hovering over her with cool wet rags droppers sticky with medicine the runaway
fears as 104 approaches I take secret deep breaths consider praying give her the last
of the cough drops a cold the flu something common and fleeting, these thoughts not stopping
helpless feelings and useless wrung hands sick little girl causes worry lines to multiply
across my stoic fatherly face only a handful of slept hours behind me, but I will never mind

Tearing down aisles, gut knotted, crawling in clothes racks, forgot to mind
the baby, now the hole in your chest is growing, her name ripping out of your mouth
Her face on milk cartons, Lifetime movies, strangers with your baby multiply
around every corner. These visions distend the minutes she’s been gone. Run away
from helpful shoppers, bargaining and begging at the ceiling, the fear’s not stopping
until a burst of innocent giggles as she leaps mischievously into your arms at last.

Nestled in the rows of the U-pick field, a baby surrounded by strawberry leaves, last
of the season. Crouching and crawling on dimpled knees, diaper skyward, one thing in mind.
Deftly picking her fill, face smeared with juice and joy, jamming berries in grinning cheeks. Stopping
only to scootch to a new patch, pink drooling and goopy, giddy in the sunlight. Offering smeary-mouth
kisses between bites, an irresistible mess. Hayride approaches. Not ready to leave, she runs away.
Watching her toddling at warp through the rows, too in love to remember the camera. Memories multiply.
Remembering the last of smeary-mouth kisses
panicked parents mind the time.She runs away.
The clock’s not stopping. Not-so-little girl causes worry lines to multiply

Friday, February 25, 2011

2 New Haiku

Zombies are cool
Zombie ice cream is cool
Da Da I love you!
                            Charlotte

Sticky ice cream face
After dinner giggle fest
Awesome Friday night
                             BDR

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Unpublished Life

Each day spent tangled
useless line edits
story becomes lost
meaning forgotten
caught up listening
to bad dialogue repeat
wasted wishes
of turning back
inserting cleverly polished words
to spin new outcomes
rarely look ahead
sift through myriad paths
unwritten endings
forget that each day
fresh breath can renew
flat characters
unlock unplot
spin new paths

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Many Are the Appetites of Man

Collaboration with Aytch Rae:



And many are the myriad appetites of man
each day the only eager steps are towards his own ruin
walking the line and cheating death a fifth at a time
leering and lusting, dumb enough to be trusting women
who whisper and wait. Secretly scenting cunning plans
of upcoming heartburn. And many a man comes running.

Tongue in groove locked in to his own demise, running

headlong at the swell and squall of his unmanning.

Clinging to the cusp of cups, drowning in the fermented rot of plans

left stagnant and swapped for slick stockings. Leaving ruins

rubble and stubble burn in his wake while smoke-ringed women

roll tired eyes counting ceiling cracks to pass the time.


Bloodshot eyes never spared temptation spread out. Now is the time

for us and them not us vs. them. Ghost towned memories running

like scantily clad lesbians through the minds of men and women.

Only some who stand chances with stuck on mustaches. Heart of man

grown colder than icebox enchiladas lay claim to imagined pain and ruin

in crab filled loins and flop house minds reality ruining beer soaked plans .


Four on the floor, gear grinding stall-out despite best lay plans;

clutching at straw mattresses made holey by cigarettes and time.

Watching collar bone hollows between warm beer swallows, ruin

gleaming in every pore, a rusted Tilt-a-Whirl spinning, running

on fumes and screams. Dignity sagging like unclasped garters, man

rolls over, speaks, plays dead, bent to the will of whispering women.



For want of better ways, swearing off not the bottle, but women
penniless from poker and popskull, time for devising new plans
of getting out of town, stripping down finding the essence of Man
Wanderlust overcoming other drives, pressing accelerator to outrace time
rust catching up to us rotting unused parts, still we keep running
rampant and manic, spinning tired wheels raging as we ruin.


Burnt earth scorched underfoot we leave when nothings left to ruin

Paradise smoldering smothered earth lost to writhing men and women

internally we combust and in others we do not trust but keep on running.

Mind seizes on far-flung breezes, escape to shores and sand castle plans

devastated. Undone by relentless tides battering her body time after time

striking through tattoos- lines drawn in the sand and through names of man.


Harmony stands stilettoed, ready to ruin any and all plans

Blindfolded, one of the cunningest women of any time,

still she keeps running through the thoughts of at least one man